7.24 Thursday 27 November 2025

Just ended QR with Surah Yasin….. it is a good morning though hubby is having a tummy upset… Tried to recall what food has he taken that daughter n I did not consume….No lead. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please let him recover because he has hypertension TCA at KK Batu Pahat at 2pm…. Ameen YRA 

A weird dream I had last night….. Made pulut kuning to go with sepat masin goreng…..for what occasion??? Woke up at 6am feeling lightheaded n nauseous…..  The anti constipation tablet taken last night does work but not fully…. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please let my digestive system be back on track … Ameen YRA. A good day to the world….❤️❤️❤️

 7.02am Wednesday 26 November 2025

Managed to access Sikonian on my own. Alhamdulillah….

Dear son is attending workshop in Bali while his son is sitting for SPM. After Bali he will be away in Tokyo…. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please keep them safe. And let my beloved grandson excel in his examination Ameen YRA….  Eldest sis n daughter, 3rd sis n 4th sis, a New Zealand PR are holidaying in South Island NZ. Feeling a little hurt that they planned the trip n left me out of the loop. Not that with all my doctor appointments n condition, I can go along…😝😝😝. All the while  I have been  praying for their safety quoting 3rd sis in Salado, Texas  n she is in South Island, NZ!!! 😝🥵.   So sad….

Yesterday, I had Pakar 6 appointment n hubby had Pakar 2 appointment… After Subuh, Daughter drove us to HBP…I was 5th in line for registration. Bless the counter young man who turned up early n processed the registration 1/2 hour earlier….. After the usual reporting at outside counter, weighing in, I was outside Pakar 6 by 8.45am…. Daughter  came by to drop my documents bag n went back to be with the father …  Some more waiting. Finally, my name was called by the familiar SN. Spoke with visiting Oncologist, Dr. Mohamad. Apparently the Incision Biopsy’s result not ready… The MO was at a loss  when I told them I had the Incision Biopsy done on 17 November morning in the Pakar 6 OT……The sad thing is the Visiting Oncologist wouldn’t entertain the possibility that the swelling is caused by infection from my left eye severe conjunctivitist…..He left n the MO  prescribed Aromasin n fixed next TCA on 16.December 2025. By then daughter is back by me…. So looks like yesterday TCA was just to get my supply of Aromasin🥵

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 7.41am Sunday 23 November 2025

Alhamdulillah daughter helped me to access my blog…. Alway find it difficult to access after a few days lapsed….

North East Monsoon has started making its presence felt. 4k Malaysian tourist stranded in Hadnyai Tailand….. Home front…. For the past 2 days, non stop rain has fallen in Kelantan…. Reminded youngest sis, who is staying alone in Kebakat,the ancestral house in  wakaf Baru, to stock up food n drink. She was unable to go out due to the heavy rain….

9.24am- Just spoke to 2nd brother in Kebakat. The water in Kebakat is rain water. Sungai Kelantan is not over flowing n quite likely it won’t overflow unless it rains non stop in the upper stream/ Ulu Kelantan….. Sg. Kelantan has been deepened in certain area by big company dredging for sand…..As a result ,the depth of Sg. Kelantan in KB is uneven. That made it dangerous. Uneven depth makes for uneven undercurrent….🥵😢…. But it also prevent over flowing n flooding the KB town….

 9.11am Wednesday 19 November 2025

Updating Sikonian after taking meds n supplements……

Yesterday morning went to Clinic Al Fatah after sending Siren n Baby Hana to Gebu… Saw Dr. Surianti who overseen a new dressing .... RM88 with some antibiotic cream n Gauze swab……So now… wait for the incision wound to heal…Taking care to prevent infection….. Bismillahirahmanirahim 

 7.24am Tuesday 18 November 2025

A day after Incision Biopsy….. The condition is not too bad. It is the waiting for the result that is nerve wracking…. 25.11.25 is the The Day…..

Yesterday morning, as instructed, we made it to the Emergency Counter before 7.30am…. Registered n went up to the 4th Floor, Unit Rawatan Harian Dewasa. We were 2nd to arrive  but Pn.J, the 1st patient had to go back down to get registered…Junior to me by a few months but definitely a very patient lady….. The 3rd patient was a guy from Segamat accompanied by the son….  After gotten us prepared… took BP n readied the fails, we were led to Pakar 6 for the Surgery….Apparently there is a small OT in Pakar 6 that handles minor surgery…….. We got ready by stripping to minimum n all metal … Another 45 minutes wait, finally, laid on the operating bed…Dr. Juliana n team worked hard to make the incision… The samples were finally taken after both doctor n patient were ‘lenguh’ beyond words……… Got changed back to own clothes. Pn Aina from Unit Rawatan gave final briefing, n prescription slip…. We went back to new block n got our medicine at the Emegency Pharmacy…. Bought some foods from the foyer, daughter brought the car n off we go, homeward bound.Stopped to have some foods across the school….Syukur Alhamdulillah….

 7.11am Saturday 15 November 2025

Yesterday was a sad day indeed. Discovered on whatSapp that my sisters are holidaying in New Zealand. Told daughter that looks like I have been left out of the loop maybe due to my condition n they must have thought that it is better to go quietly….. But it is hurting a lot. It is rather difficult to get over it….I know it is not good to get stressed out…My sisters apologized but it did not help….. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please help me . Ameen YRA …..

 7.27am Thursday 13 November 2025

Assalamualaikum n a good morning to the world…..It has not rained for a long long time…. Yesterday afternoon drizzle did not even wet the surface of the road…..😢🥲🥵.    The geese are making such ear piercing noise …..They too must be longing for the rain…. Irma n I plan to send Hanis, Boo2 n Baby Hana for Vaccination  n go shop at Tesco…Inn Sya Allah…..  

 7.13am Saturday 08 November 2025

Alhamdulillah for another day.

Poor Siren warded at Gebu yesterday… Ya Allah Ya Rabb please let him recover soon.  Daughter felt bad for not sending him for treatment earlier. Told her not to feel bad because we had such tight schedule n we are so tired from it all. Let us pray that the vet is able to treat him well Inn Sya Allah…..

 6.37am Friday 07 November 2025

Syukur Alhamdulillah for another beautiful day….🙏🏻❤️

A long day at BP Hospital yesterday. ….  It started with an unpleasant episode….. When daughter joined the Q with 2 ladies in front, another lady suddenly wanted to cut in front of daughter. We told her to fall back. She started to argued that she came at 6am, earlier than us  ,so on, so on….. To everyone surprise I told her in Manderin that, if she was ealy why wasn’t she in Q n told her to stop talking…..

After a long wait, had to go to the inner counter to ask them to check where my fail was. The guy came back saying that my fail was in the doctor’s hand but refused to say which room… Finally, got to see rookie MO X   After consultation, he left to consult Pakar Azreen. After a long wait, I commented ,maybe he has forgotten about me!! Another Mo suddenly stood up n said he would check for me. MO X came back n told me to leave my mobile no n go out n do something , maybe eat… because Pakar Azreen not available yet…… So we went to the loo. MO X called. Pakar Azreen told me the USG Guided biopsy result inconclusive n I need another incision biopsy… Waited some more out side… MO X came out with the documents. Went to the 2nd pharmacy n got the painkiller enough till 24. November 2025; the biopsy day….. 

 7.22am Wednesday 05 November 2025

A good morning to the world. Hubby’s pain killer works wonders…. Had a good n peaceful night sleep n woke up to a beautiful world….❤️ 

Dependency on painkiller is not a good move but remembering an MO’s statement made decades ago in KL Hospital , “ You want quality life or worry of side effect of painkiller ?” put the worry to rest….  Decisions, decisions is endless in this struggle against the illness…. Ya Rabb, please guide me n bless me always. Ameen YRA….

 7.25am Tuesday 04 November 2025

Alhamdulillah QR ended with Surah Yasin….

This morning applied aloe gel to the  site. Alhamdulillah. It relieved the soreness n discomfort. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please let me always remember this magical herb of Yours whenever I am in distress. Ameen YRA…Daughter suggested that I go to the pharmacy n get pain killer because she could not bear to see me suffer ❤️❤️❤️ Told her I will try to apply the aloe gel more diligently n see how it goes…. Inn Sya Allah….

 7.02am Monday 03 November 2025

Alhamdulillah. Thank Rabb for another day…

Today dearest grandson who has just recovered from Influenza A is having his SPM Oral BM examination. Dear Rabb please bless him n let him fare well. Ameen YRA. His Papa has a week long workshop in Melaka starting today. Please bless him n keep him safe. And please bless  grandson n his mother n keep them safe during dearest son absence… Ameen YRA…. Please keep my USJ6 house safe from human n pest intrusions during dearest son absence… Ameen YRA.

This morning, hubby did not go to Masjid because of headache. Dear Rabb let him be well. Ameen YRA. May my loved ones n I have a great day. Ameen YRA….

 7.24am Sunday 02 November 2025

Awakened this morning feeling ok. Alhamdulillah. Daughter has discovered more literature on Lyphedema clavical n will print them out .Will study them n present them to the MO during 06.11.25 TCA…Daughter n I agreed that, Majority of MOS lack of knowledge on the condition n are not prepared to enrich themselves….. 

Daughter has printed out the articles n we will study them before the TCA…

 6.41am Saturday 01 November 2025

QR ended with Surah Yasin. Alhamdulillah….

Last night, the pain was awful. Managed by applying antipain cream, hot water bottle, sleeping with light n air conditioning on…… Still hoping it is lymphoma clavical n not recurrence. Yesterday afternoon, the caring Dr.Kumar called n said that the ultra sound guided biopsy result is back. That was quite fast for a government hospital….Dr. Kumar asked me to go to Pakar 2 at 9am Thursday 06.11.2025 … It was not a clear description of the result so have to wait for the TCA…. Come what may,  I have to be prepared for it. Inn Sya Allah….May Allah SWT have mercy on me. Ameen YRA.

 6.55am Friday 31 October 2025..

End of October 2025…. Updating blog with QR surah Yasin. May Allah SWT bless me n my loved ones always. Let us recover from the illnesses that we are suffering from…. Ameen YRA…

Ya Allah Ya Rabb, please let daughter be stress free n goes on doing the best of her daily deeds. Ameen YRA. Let hubby have the best of his memory n awareness. Ameen YRA. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please let me  be able to manage the lymphadema clavical well n continue to have a quality life. Ameen YRA…. And most important of all Let me n my loved be blessed n protected in our activities Ameen YRA..🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

 7.25am  Thursday 30 October 2025

Just ended QR with Surah Yasin. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please forgive us for we have sinned intentionally n unintentionally. Ameen YRA.

A tragedy just took place on Monday 27 October 2025 in Pt Nipah Laut, right across the Sabak Uni Masjid…. In my neighborhood …😢🥵😖…A 9 yrs old boy whose phone was damaged by his 6 yrs old bother, slashed the neck n stabbed the body of the brother….. The 9 yrs old lost his senses when the game points he collected were gone… The 40 yrs old parents are remanded for 2 days…. I guess when they made police report the cooked up stories to protect the elder son…… So another serious crime committed by minor in 2025….. Investigation is on going…. Daughter said… the result of Covid can not be ruled out…. So sad…

 7.25am Monday 27 October 2025

Assalamualaikum world. Alhamdulillah for another day….Surah Yasin ended QR of the day. May Allah SWT bless me , my loved ones n everyone that pray for a good day. Ameen YRA.

Yesterday my thought was about my youngest sister back in my hometown…. She is head strong, fearless but have a soft spot for animal. She once had an argument with my late mum while driving, She stopped the car n told my mum to get out if my mum wouldn’t give in.😝😬…..She was the state swimmer but did not fare well in her study… She was a rolling stone…  She changed job like changing clothes. She worked in KL, PJ, Penang, Tioman n Besut that I could recall….. Due to her physique n girlish outlook, she got bullied a lot at work… She was made to stay in tree house n got bitten by the dog she had to take care…Once, my brother had to fetch her in the middle of the night from a beach resort where she worked in due to harassment…. She married a Mama’s boy but got divorced in the end. During her marriage ,she stayed in KL in a house full of cats. The ex husband loves cat too…

After her divorce, we persuaded her to return home to help taking care of our parents. Most of the 8 siblings contributed to  the monthly maintenance…. Even though shouting n yelling were part n parcel of the life back home, we are still grateful for her to be there…. May God bless her always. ❤️❤️❤️

 7.35am Sunday 26 October 2025

Time waits for no man…. Tik tok, tik tok, the clock 2nd hand keeps moving…..Nothing anyone could do to stop time. You could disable the clock but time won’t stop……So life goes on. Rather depressing come to think of it…. So make the best of now I suppose. Pray for the best of everything… health, happiness, wealth, longevity; as much time with loved ones; always try to communicate n show love n care…. THAT’S. IT…..And most importantly, Alhamdulillah, be thankful for what we have….❤️❤️❤️

 7.31am Saturday 25 October 2025

Just Usai morning QR with Surah Yasin. Alhamdulillah…. Allah SWT masih memperkenankan…. Inn Sya Allah all is good.   Just watched a video clip of a pilot who ignored the Miami Tower denial of immediate landing due to on coming VIP landing The tower announced that he could only land in 12 minutes!!! The pilot said he was aware of the disciplinary consequence if he proceed to land but he has medical emergency on board. .. A child is about to loose his life any second….  Well, a good story to start the day with…. I am assured that humanity is still alive.God  bless the pilot…. Ameen YRA 

 6.41am Thursday 23 October 2025

Assalamualaikum n a good morning to the world….

The geese are making so much noise out there… Wonder what is spooking them ? The big biawak maybe…. Anyway, throughout the night they were well behaved….🥰🥰🥰 Thank you guys….   

Alhamdulillah after the ultra sound guided biopsy on Tuesday 21 October 2025, there seem to be a little relief around the lump site. Could it be the twice needle insertion somehow released  the pressure at the site?! Thank You Rabb…

Anyway, the experience encountered on Tuesday 21 October 2025 left much to be desired….. As instructed by Dr S.Kumar, Daughter n I arrived at the Imagery Department before 2pm the scheduled time… OMG the forms submitted by Dr. Kumar was no where to be found… The counter guy not wearing name tag was pathetic n clueless……He showed me a book n said that Dr. Kumar has taken back the form .He told me to go find Dr. Kumar!! Told him I could hardly walk! Why don’t he pick up the phone n call up Pakar 2. I had to explain that on Oncology Day at Pakar 6, the MOs from Pakar 2 would be in Pakar 6 helping the visiting oncologist handle the cancer patients. But on normal days those MOs would be in Pakar 2…. 

After waiting some more, A guy, later I found out to be Dr, Anuar, called out for me to go to Room E. In Room E I was told to change my top n lie down on the bed. A young lady doctor attended to me. Again no name tag…. They on the ultra sound machine n I could see the site…. From their conversation n the way Dr, Anuar handles the ultra sound machine,  I sense INEXPERIENCE…. They called in a male senior doctor who helped to decide the entry point of the cut.. I told them if they are not sure, please don’t proceed….I HAVE FOUGHT THE CANCER FOR OVER 20 YEARS N I DON’T WANT TO BLEED TO DEATH ON THIS BED!!!     

Finally, they found my form (It was sent over to the new block!!!).  And they called in a lady lab assistant to determine the sufficiency of sample taken. Then the biopsy was done… 2 needle insertions…..Syukur Alhamdulillah. I am sure they must have found me to be a handful patient But then again, I wonder what will happen to a silent patient in this situation??? Thanked them before leaving….

Thank you daughter for the patience. Love you

 6.56amTuesday 21 October 2025

Just concluded QR surah Yasin. Sedekah utk sahabat Hjh Rodah bt. Hj Tahir who is scheduled for heart surgery today. Semoga she is blessed. Ameen YRA.   It is also for yrs truly who is scheduled for ultra sound guided biopsy at 2pm today at Imagery Department HBP… Ya Allah Ya Rabb please let it be successful in determining the nature of the lump above my left clavicle n thus the treatment needed. Ameen YRA….

Daughter just sprayed throat meds that caused me to almost pute…. The throat is itchy n causes dry cough……..Ya Allah Ya Rabb please keep me n my loved ones safe …. Ameen YRA.

 7.05am Monday 20 October 2025

Happy Deepavali to family n friends n those who celebrate the Festival of Light…. May the Light brings happiness to the people who live in the shadow due to one reason or another….

Another night of painful left shoulder definiely welcome the lively chirping of the birds outside the window….The livly chirping drives away the  morning blue…. And it also encourages some thinking about what really trigers the pain in the left shoulder…… Is it the food ?? Last night I took nasi lemak with sambal sotong n kerang, pucuk betik n pucuk gajus, yth soup, Harold’s creme tart, some longan.. so which one is the culprit ?? Could it be the longan . Usually daughter will caustion me when she sees me eating that fruit. No overeating , Ma!!! Does it means I have to give up that favourite fruit ? Don’t know…  No pain, no hal has always determines the decision….😝😬😖

Well got to go start the meds routine…. May Allah SWT bless us all… Ameen YRA 

 7.11am Friday 17.10.2025

Still struggling to start a new post😢

Good morning world n its inhabitants.. Our 6 geese are going around making their presence felt in the backyard…. They can be real annoying at 3am. But then againl they are our watch dogs… They are supposed to raise alarm whenever there is an “ intruder” So can we blame them ! Anyway, deepest apology to the neighbors…🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻…… With the concrete n zinc fencing erected, we no longer worry about the notorious wild boars family that used to invade anytime they like. Their intrusion made my searching for durian in the back unsafe…. Now that the back yard is safer from wildboars n durian thieves, though not from python, there are fewer durian !!! It must be the extreme hot weather…😪🫩😬

An ineteresting scene outside the window… A small burung ayam-ayam is picking food on the lamtoro or petai belalang tree…It is unusual because burung ayam-ayam are normally grounded….I always see them dashing here n there on the ground… Well, now I discover their hidden trait….

It is 7.40am, time for  my 1st medicine of the day; to be taken half an hour before breakfast….

 8.03 am  Wednesday 15 October 2025.

Again struggled to open the site after not visiting fir a while….

Saw the Onco yesterday. CT Scan result again does not detect the lump above the left clavicle. Told the doctor, the pain in the left shoulder when it struck is 15 on a scale of 10 !!! And I felt like boxing someone real hard. The visiting Onco Dr. Peter recommended biopsy. The young MO, Dr S Kumar is an angel. He spent more than an hour attending to my problem. He even went personally to the Imaging Department to get me biopsy appointment….God bless you sir…. Got my blood sample taken at Day Care…and next TCA time at the front counter.

Left a while to take medicine…. It was a whole morning affair

 7.43am  Tuesday 26 August

         After QR, feeling rather indecisive on what I wanted to do next…. The vision has not fully recovered. The bad bout of giddiness n overall body ache due to crabs eating a few days ago still lingers; The clavicle lymphedema persists. That causes the pain in the left shoulder n arm to be frequent. When the pain occurs, heat patch n hot water bottle do help…. 

         Come to think of it, the lack of self-control over diet n habitual indulgence is the main cause…. Those days of eating less of fried food n more of so called ‘healthy’ diet are numbered…And the love of on line dramas n movies took a chunk of the time…not paying any attention to the tiredness of the eyes n the  needs for outdoor activities…. Always succumbed to “ I need more rest…” defense mechanism 😝🤪🥵😢😪🥲.

        Time for breakfast n medications…….

 7.28am Wednesday 06 August 2025

Alhamdulillah I am allowed to cross the threshold of 74 on 03.08.2025. There used to be the uncertainty before that due to the recurrence n the problems of Lymphaderma clavicle , the repetitive body aches, the blurring eye sight due to bad bout of conjunctivitis…… Daughter’s loving n tireless care is the key contributing factor to the positive outcome. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please bless her with the best of everything dunia n akhirat. Ameen YRA …..

I have been telling myself that  I will go on fighting against my complacency n pray hard that The Almighty will grant me more time with my loved ones…Ameen YRA 

 7.26am  Sunday  20 July 2025

Syukur Alhamdulillah, the pain in the left shoulder which started around 5.30am in the Brown room is under control after daughter put a heat patch on the back of the shoulder.

The excruciating pain is rather frightening…. It is definitely beyond 10….  After the Lymphoderma Clavical developed after the left armpit surgery in mid 2024, I did experienced the pain in the left shoulder a few times but they were never this bad…. 

On Friday 18 July, Dr. Alwiyah did examined me during my visit to the Daycare after I told her about the problem…. She asked me to wait for the CT Scan result scheduled for 29 July 2025…. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please show me the way to manage this problem… Ameen YRA.

7.45am…better go get some breakfast n later the medicines n supplements…..****** . After that go walkabout in the yard. I am sure the 6.20am long awaited shower must have rendered much cooler atmosphere.☺️😀🐰🐰

 8.38pm 15 July 2025

I am back. 

With vision impaied by bad conjunctivitis, finding it rather uncomfortable looking at the screen.. Though the redness almost gone, the vision is rather blurry……

Where do I begin to tell the story…… 27 June, giddiness n nauseating feeling got me to the Emergency Department ,HBP. Daughter drove me there around 9pm. After HA took down my particulars in Q & A session, ECG taken. Saw Dr. Syed whom I thought was an Indian. Q & A again. Physical examination followed by blood sample taking.. After that brought to a waiting room. Told to lie down n sleep while waiting for the blood test result. 2am 28.July, Dr.Azhar told Irma n I that all test results are good, my heart, kidney n other vital organs are in good condition. The giddiness n nauseating feeling most likely due to my gastric problem… He prescribed medicines n we took them at the Emergency Pharmacy

2.30am homeward bound. Stopped at FamilyMart, Taman U….Daughter went for some stuffs. I gave some money. Feeling weird waiting in the car. Arrived home around 3.30am. Changed clothes, washed up n went to bed….

A few days later, my left eye turned red. Did not think too much about it… Went to the GP n got medicine for it. It got worst. Went back to the GP again n was told to go see eye specialist after more medication n RM77 …. Daughter googled for eye specialist . Decided to go to BP instead of Kluang. On 12 July we went to  Accuvission  n saw Dr.Sai… For RM230, I came away with 3 types of eye drops after several eye examination n a followup on Wednesday 16 July 2025

Diligently , daughter has been helping to apply the eye drops till today. The redness almost gone but the vision not so good… So will see what Dr.Sai says tomorrow. Bismillahirahmanirahim, let it be good, Ameen.