6.41am Saturday 01 November 2025

QR ended with Surah Yasin. Alhamdulillah….

Last night, the pain was awful. Managed by applying antipain cream, hot water bottle, sleeping with light n air conditioning on…… Still hoping it is lymphoma clavical n not recurrence. Yesterday afternoon, the caring Dr.Kumar called n said that the ultra sound guided biopsy result is back. That was quite fast for a government hospital….Dr. Kumar asked me to go to Pakar 2 at 9am Thursday 06.11.2025 … It was not a clear description of the result so have to wait for the TCA…. Come what may,  I have to be prepared for it. Inn Sya Allah….May Allah SWT have mercy on me. Ameen YRA.

 6.55am Friday 31 October 2025..

End of October 2025…. Updating blog with QR surah Yasin. May Allah SWT bless me n my loved ones always. Let us recover from the illnesses that we are suffering from…. Ameen YRA…

Ya Allah Ya Rabb, please let daughter be stress free n goes on doing the best of her daily deeds. Ameen YRA. Let hubby have the best of his memory n awareness. Ameen YRA. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please let me  be able to manage the lymphadema clavical well n continue to have a quality life. Ameen YRA…. And most important of all Let me n my loved be blessed n protected in our activities Ameen YRA..🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

 7.25am  Thursday 30 October 2025

Just ended QR with Surah Yasin. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please forgive us for we have sinned intentionally n unintentionally. Ameen YRA.

A tragedy just took place on Monday 27 October 2025 in Pt Nipah Laut, right across the Sabak Uni Masjid…. In my neighborhood …😢🥵😖…A 9 yrs old boy whose phone was damaged by his 6 yrs old bother, slashed the neck n stabbed the body of the brother….. The 9 yrs old lost his senses when the game points he collected were gone… The 40 yrs old parents are remanded for 2 days…. I guess when they made police report the cooked up stories to protect the elder son…… So another serious crime committed by minor in 2025….. Investigation is on going…. Daughter said… the result of Covid can not be ruled out…. So sad…

 7.25am Monday 27 October 2025

Assalamualaikum world. Alhamdulillah for another day….Surah Yasin ended QR of the day. May Allah SWT bless me , my loved ones n everyone that pray for a good day. Ameen YRA.

Yesterday my thought was about my youngest sister back in my hometown…. She is head strong, fearless but have a soft spot for animal. She once had an argument with my late mum while driving, She stopped the car n told my mum to get out if my mum wouldn’t give in.😝😬…..She was the state swimmer but did not fare well in her study… She was a rolling stone…  She changed job like changing clothes. She worked in KL, PJ, Penang, Tioman n Besut that I could recall….. Due to her physique n girlish outlook, she got bullied a lot at work… She was made to stay in tree house n got bitten by the dog she had to take care…Once, my brother had to fetch her in the middle of the night from a beach resort where she worked in due to harassment…. She married a Mama’s boy but got divorced in the end. During her marriage ,she stayed in KL in a house full of cats. The ex husband loves cat too…

After her divorce, we persuaded her to return home to help taking care of our parents. Most of the 8 siblings contributed to  the monthly maintenance…. Even though shouting n yelling were part n parcel of the life back home, we are still grateful for her to be there…. May God bless her always. ❤️❤️❤️

 7.35am Sunday 26 October 2025

Time waits for no man…. Tik tok, tik tok, the clock 2nd hand keeps moving…..Nothing anyone could do to stop time. You could disable the clock but time won’t stop……So life goes on. Rather depressing come to think of it…. So make the best of now I suppose. Pray for the best of everything… health, happiness, wealth, longevity; as much time with loved ones; always try to communicate n show love n care…. THAT’S. IT…..And most importantly, Alhamdulillah, be thankful for what we have….❤️❤️❤️

 7.31am Saturday 25 October 2025

Just Usai morning QR with Surah Yasin. Alhamdulillah…. Allah SWT masih memperkenankan…. Inn Sya Allah all is good.   Just watched a video clip of a pilot who ignored the Miami Tower denial of immediate landing due to on coming VIP landing The tower announced that he could only land in 12 minutes!!! The pilot said he was aware of the disciplinary consequence if he proceed to land but he has medical emergency on board. .. A child is about to loose his life any second….  Well, a good story to start the day with…. I am assured that humanity is still alive.God  bless the pilot…. Ameen YRA 

 6.41am Thursday 23 October 2025

Assalamualaikum n a good morning to the world….

The geese are making so much noise out there… Wonder what is spooking them ? The big biawak maybe…. Anyway, throughout the night they were well behaved….🥰🥰🥰 Thank you guys….   

Alhamdulillah after the ultra sound guided biopsy on Tuesday 21 October 2025, there seem to be a little relief around the lump site. Could it be the twice needle insertion somehow released  the pressure at the site?! Thank You Rabb…

Anyway, the experience encountered on Tuesday 21 October 2025 left much to be desired….. As instructed by Dr S.Kumar, Daughter n I arrived at the Imagery Department before 2pm the scheduled time… OMG the forms submitted by Dr. Kumar was no where to be found… The counter guy not wearing name tag was pathetic n clueless……He showed me a book n said that Dr. Kumar has taken back the form .He told me to go find Dr. Kumar!! Told him I could hardly walk! Why don’t he pick up the phone n call up Pakar 2. I had to explain that on Oncology Day at Pakar 6, the MOs from Pakar 2 would be in Pakar 6 helping the visiting oncologist handle the cancer patients. But on normal days those MOs would be in Pakar 2…. 

After waiting some more, A guy, later I found out to be Dr, Anuar, called out for me to go to Room E. In Room E I was told to change my top n lie down on the bed. A young lady doctor attended to me. Again no name tag…. They on the ultra sound machine n I could see the site…. From their conversation n the way Dr, Anuar handles the ultra sound machine,  I sense INEXPERIENCE…. They called in a male senior doctor who helped to decide the entry point of the cut.. I told them if they are not sure, please don’t proceed….I HAVE FOUGHT THE CANCER FOR OVER 20 YEARS N I DON’T WANT TO BLEED TO DEATH ON THIS BED!!!     

Finally, they found my form (It was sent over to the new block!!!).  And they called in a lady lab assistant to determine the sufficiency of sample taken. Then the biopsy was done… 2 needle insertions…..Syukur Alhamdulillah. I am sure they must have found me to be a handful patient But then again, I wonder what will happen to a silent patient in this situation??? Thanked them before leaving….

Thank you daughter for the patience. Love you

 6.56amTuesday 21 October 2025

Just concluded QR surah Yasin. Sedekah utk sahabat Hjh Rodah bt. Hj Tahir who is scheduled for heart surgery today. Semoga she is blessed. Ameen YRA.   It is also for yrs truly who is scheduled for ultra sound guided biopsy at 2pm today at Imagery Department HBP… Ya Allah Ya Rabb please let it be successful in determining the nature of the lump above my left clavicle n thus the treatment needed. Ameen YRA….

Daughter just sprayed throat meds that caused me to almost pute…. The throat is itchy n causes dry cough……..Ya Allah Ya Rabb please keep me n my loved ones safe …. Ameen YRA.

 7.05am Monday 20 October 2025

Happy Deepavali to family n friends n those who celebrate the Festival of Light…. May the Light brings happiness to the people who live in the shadow due to one reason or another….

Another night of painful left shoulder definiely welcome the lively chirping of the birds outside the window….The livly chirping drives away the  morning blue…. And it also encourages some thinking about what really trigers the pain in the left shoulder…… Is it the food ?? Last night I took nasi lemak with sambal sotong n kerang, pucuk betik n pucuk gajus, yth soup, Harold’s creme tart, some longan.. so which one is the culprit ?? Could it be the longan . Usually daughter will caustion me when she sees me eating that fruit. No overeating , Ma!!! Does it means I have to give up that favourite fruit ? Don’t know…  No pain, no hal has always determines the decision….😝😬😖

Well got to go start the meds routine…. May Allah SWT bless us all… Ameen YRA 

 7.11am Friday 17.10.2025

Still struggling to start a new post😢

Good morning world n its inhabitants.. Our 6 geese are going around making their presence felt in the backyard…. They can be real annoying at 3am. But then againl they are our watch dogs… They are supposed to raise alarm whenever there is an “ intruder” So can we blame them ! Anyway, deepest apology to the neighbors…🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻…… With the concrete n zinc fencing erected, we no longer worry about the notorious wild boars family that used to invade anytime they like. Their intrusion made my searching for durian in the back unsafe…. Now that the back yard is safer from wildboars n durian thieves, though not from python, there are fewer durian !!! It must be the extreme hot weather…😪🫩😬

An ineteresting scene outside the window… A small burung ayam-ayam is picking food on the lamtoro or petai belalang tree…It is unusual because burung ayam-ayam are normally grounded….I always see them dashing here n there on the ground… Well, now I discover their hidden trait….

It is 7.40am, time for  my 1st medicine of the day; to be taken half an hour before breakfast….

 8.03 am  Wednesday 15 October 2025.

Again struggled to open the site after not visiting fir a while….

Saw the Onco yesterday. CT Scan result again does not detect the lump above the left clavicle. Told the doctor, the pain in the left shoulder when it struck is 15 on a scale of 10 !!! And I felt like boxing someone real hard. The visiting Onco Dr. Peter recommended biopsy. The young MO, Dr S Kumar is an angel. He spent more than an hour attending to my problem. He even went personally to the Imaging Department to get me biopsy appointment….God bless you sir…. Got my blood sample taken at Day Care…and next TCA time at the front counter.

Left a while to take medicine…. It was a whole morning affair