7.35am Sunday 26 October 2025

Time waits for no man…. Tik tok, tik tok, the clock 2nd hand keeps moving…..Nothing anyone could do to stop time. You could disable the clock but time won’t stop……So life goes on. Rather depressing come to think of it…. So make the best of now I suppose. Pray for the best of everything… health, happiness, wealth, longevity; as much time with loved ones; always try to communicate n show love n care…. THAT’S. IT…..And most importantly, Alhamdulillah, be thankful for what we have….❤️❤️❤️

 7.31am Saturday 25 October 2025

Just Usai morning QR with Surah Yasin. Alhamdulillah…. Allah SWT masih memperkenankan…. Inn Sya Allah all is good.   Just watched a video clip of a pilot who ignored the Miami Tower denial of immediate landing due to on coming VIP landing The tower announced that he could only land in 12 minutes!!! The pilot said he was aware of the disciplinary consequence if he proceed to land but he has medical emergency on board. .. A child is about to loose his life any second….  Well, a good story to start the day with…. I am assured that humanity is still alive.God  bless the pilot…. Ameen YRA 

 6.41am Thursday 23 October 2025

Assalamualaikum n a good morning to the world….

The geese are making so much noise out there… Wonder what is spooking them ? The big biawak maybe…. Anyway, throughout the night they were well behaved….🥰🥰🥰 Thank you guys….   

Alhamdulillah after the ultra sound guided biopsy on Tuesday 21 October 2025, there seem to be a little relief around the lump site. Could it be the twice needle insertion somehow released  the pressure at the site?! Thank You Rabb…

Anyway, the experience encountered on Tuesday 21 October 2025 left much to be desired….. As instructed by Dr S.Kumar, Daughter n I arrived at the Imagery Department before 2pm the scheduled time… OMG the forms submitted by Dr. Kumar was no where to be found… The counter guy not wearing name tag was pathetic n clueless……He showed me a book n said that Dr. Kumar has taken back the form .He told me to go find Dr. Kumar!! Told him I could hardly walk! Why don’t he pick up the phone n call up Pakar 2. I had to explain that on Oncology Day at Pakar 6, the MOs from Pakar 2 would be in Pakar 6 helping the visiting oncologist handle the cancer patients. But on normal days those MOs would be in Pakar 2…. 

After waiting some more, A guy, later I found out to be Dr, Anuar, called out for me to go to Room E. In Room E I was told to change my top n lie down on the bed. A young lady doctor attended to me. Again no name tag…. They on the ultra sound machine n I could see the site…. From their conversation n the way Dr, Anuar handles the ultra sound machine,  I sense INEXPERIENCE…. They called in a male senior doctor who helped to decide the entry point of the cut.. I told them if they are not sure, please don’t proceed….I HAVE FOUGHT THE CANCER FOR OVER 20 YEARS N I DON’T WANT TO BLEED TO DEATH ON THIS BED!!!     

Finally, they found my form (It was sent over to the new block!!!).  And they called in a lady lab assistant to determine the sufficiency of sample taken. Then the biopsy was done… 2 needle insertions…..Syukur Alhamdulillah. I am sure they must have found me to be a handful patient But then again, I wonder what will happen to a silent patient in this situation??? Thanked them before leaving….

Thank you daughter for the patience. Love you

 6.56amTuesday 21 October 2025

Just concluded QR surah Yasin. Sedekah utk sahabat Hjh Rodah bt. Hj Tahir who is scheduled for heart surgery today. Semoga she is blessed. Ameen YRA.   It is also for yrs truly who is scheduled for ultra sound guided biopsy at 2pm today at Imagery Department HBP… Ya Allah Ya Rabb please let it be successful in determining the nature of the lump above my left clavicle n thus the treatment needed. Ameen YRA….

Daughter just sprayed throat meds that caused me to almost pute…. The throat is itchy n causes dry cough……..Ya Allah Ya Rabb please keep me n my loved ones safe …. Ameen YRA.

 7.05am Monday 20 October 2025

Happy Deepavali to family n friends n those who celebrate the Festival of Light…. May the Light brings happiness to the people who live in the shadow due to one reason or another….

Another night of painful left shoulder definiely welcome the lively chirping of the birds outside the window….The livly chirping drives away the  morning blue…. And it also encourages some thinking about what really trigers the pain in the left shoulder…… Is it the food ?? Last night I took nasi lemak with sambal sotong n kerang, pucuk betik n pucuk gajus, yth soup, Harold’s creme tart, some longan.. so which one is the culprit ?? Could it be the longan . Usually daughter will caustion me when she sees me eating that fruit. No overeating , Ma!!! Does it means I have to give up that favourite fruit ? Don’t know…  No pain, no hal has always determines the decision….😝😬😖

Well got to go start the meds routine…. May Allah SWT bless us all… Ameen YRA 

 7.11am Friday 17.10.2025

Still struggling to start a new post😢

Good morning world n its inhabitants.. Our 6 geese are going around making their presence felt in the backyard…. They can be real annoying at 3am. But then againl they are our watch dogs… They are supposed to raise alarm whenever there is an “ intruder” So can we blame them ! Anyway, deepest apology to the neighbors…🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻…… With the concrete n zinc fencing erected, we no longer worry about the notorious wild boars family that used to invade anytime they like. Their intrusion made my searching for durian in the back unsafe…. Now that the back yard is safer from wildboars n durian thieves, though not from python, there are fewer durian !!! It must be the extreme hot weather…😪🫩😬

An ineteresting scene outside the window… A small burung ayam-ayam is picking food on the lamtoro or petai belalang tree…It is unusual because burung ayam-ayam are normally grounded….I always see them dashing here n there on the ground… Well, now I discover their hidden trait….

It is 7.40am, time for  my 1st medicine of the day; to be taken half an hour before breakfast….

 8.03 am  Wednesday 15 October 2025.

Again struggled to open the site after not visiting fir a while….

Saw the Onco yesterday. CT Scan result again does not detect the lump above the left clavicle. Told the doctor, the pain in the left shoulder when it struck is 15 on a scale of 10 !!! And I felt like boxing someone real hard. The visiting Onco Dr. Peter recommended biopsy. The young MO, Dr S Kumar is an angel. He spent more than an hour attending to my problem. He even went personally to the Imaging Department to get me biopsy appointment….God bless you sir…. Got my blood sample taken at Day Care…and next TCA time at the front counter.

Left a while to take medicine…. It was a whole morning affair

 7.43am  Tuesday 26 August

         After QR, feeling rather indecisive on what I wanted to do next…. The vision has not fully recovered. The bad bout of giddiness n overall body ache due to crabs eating a few days ago still lingers; The clavicle lymphedema persists. That causes the pain in the left shoulder n arm to be frequent. When the pain occurs, heat patch n hot water bottle do help…. 

         Come to think of it, the lack of self-control over diet n habitual indulgence is the main cause…. Those days of eating less of fried food n more of so called ‘healthy’ diet are numbered…And the love of on line dramas n movies took a chunk of the time…not paying any attention to the tiredness of the eyes n the  needs for outdoor activities…. Always succumbed to “ I need more rest…” defense mechanism 😝🤪🥵😢😪🥲.

        Time for breakfast n medications…….

 7.28am Wednesday 06 August 2025

Alhamdulillah I am allowed to cross the threshold of 74 on 03.08.2025. There used to be the uncertainty before that due to the recurrence n the problems of Lymphaderma clavicle , the repetitive body aches, the blurring eye sight due to bad bout of conjunctivitis…… Daughter’s loving n tireless care is the key contributing factor to the positive outcome. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please bless her with the best of everything dunia n akhirat. Ameen YRA …..

I have been telling myself that  I will go on fighting against my complacency n pray hard that The Almighty will grant me more time with my loved ones…Ameen YRA 

 7.26am  Sunday  20 July 2025

Syukur Alhamdulillah, the pain in the left shoulder which started around 5.30am in the Brown room is under control after daughter put a heat patch on the back of the shoulder.

The excruciating pain is rather frightening…. It is definitely beyond 10….  After the Lymphoderma Clavical developed after the left armpit surgery in mid 2024, I did experienced the pain in the left shoulder a few times but they were never this bad…. 

On Friday 18 July, Dr. Alwiyah did examined me during my visit to the Daycare after I told her about the problem…. She asked me to wait for the CT Scan result scheduled for 29 July 2025…. Ya Allah Ya Rabb please show me the way to manage this problem… Ameen YRA.

7.45am…better go get some breakfast n later the medicines n supplements…..****** . After that go walkabout in the yard. I am sure the 6.20am long awaited shower must have rendered much cooler atmosphere.☺️😀🐰🐰

 8.38pm 15 July 2025

I am back. 

With vision impaied by bad conjunctivitis, finding it rather uncomfortable looking at the screen.. Though the redness almost gone, the vision is rather blurry……

Where do I begin to tell the story…… 27 June, giddiness n nauseating feeling got me to the Emergency Department ,HBP. Daughter drove me there around 9pm. After HA took down my particulars in Q & A session, ECG taken. Saw Dr. Syed whom I thought was an Indian. Q & A again. Physical examination followed by blood sample taking.. After that brought to a waiting room. Told to lie down n sleep while waiting for the blood test result. 2am 28.July, Dr.Azhar told Irma n I that all test results are good, my heart, kidney n other vital organs are in good condition. The giddiness n nauseating feeling most likely due to my gastric problem… He prescribed medicines n we took them at the Emergency Pharmacy

2.30am homeward bound. Stopped at FamilyMart, Taman U….Daughter went for some stuffs. I gave some money. Feeling weird waiting in the car. Arrived home around 3.30am. Changed clothes, washed up n went to bed….

A few days later, my left eye turned red. Did not think too much about it… Went to the GP n got medicine for it. It got worst. Went back to the GP again n was told to go see eye specialist after more medication n RM77 …. Daughter googled for eye specialist . Decided to go to BP instead of Kluang. On 12 July we went to  Accuvission  n saw Dr.Sai… For RM230, I came away with 3 types of eye drops after several eye examination n a followup on Wednesday 16 July 2025

Diligently , daughter has been helping to apply the eye drops till today. The redness almost gone but the vision not so good… So will see what Dr.Sai says tomorrow. Bismillahirahmanirahim, let it be good, Ameen.