12.34am Sunday 01.01.2023
Assalamualuikum 2023
Inn Sya Allah I will try to be a better person this year.
What is a better person ? I guess for me is……..
1. Live a healthy lifestyle 2. Talk less,listen more 3. Don’t procrastinate 4. Do work within ability 5. Learn more…..
Will elaborate another time. Must go to bed now… Healthy lifestyle 😁
Thursday 20.10.2022/ 23 R. Awal 1444H ....... Did not make entry on this date😁
Thursday 03.11.2022/ 08 R. Akhir 1444H
7.13am
Usai solat, did morning exercises as usual to start a new day.
What happened? No entry in early 2022? Too busy? Forgetful?
Busy...yes, forgetful.....also yes 😂
Busy getting healthy. ... TCA after TCA; test after test; and now going through treatment....
Allah SWT is testing me n my family again with the illness after more than 20 years. To add to it, Mak was taken from us on Thursday, 30 March 2022..... My state of mind? Guess I can not put down in words...... Some how it is bearable because I believe in Him n His 'Ketentuan'...... When testing me, He provide me with a strong support... a loving family❤. My daughter has come home to take care of her aged parents since the onset of the pandemic. ( She just called out to me to go for breakfast... my favourite, lomaikai...😍)
Will continue later...........
Saturday 31.12.2022 10.28pm
Wow less than 2 hours before 2023..... what am I to write before saying goodbye tò 2022? Hmmmmm
What was my preoccupation for this year ? I must admit it is trying to SURVIVE... in my private space...... Just like the 1st time, I don't want to share my problem with anyone outside my immediate family circle.... I guarded the occurance so fiecely that it remains my secret till this moment. May Allah SWT forgive me for being stubborn.....
This time around, the health problem is complicated by numerous factors..... Age, Covid, existing health issues to name a few....
20 years older this time. The body natural defence machanism is definitely weaker. Memory is less sharp.... Daughter constantly reminding me to drink water😂..... Had to double check whether I have taken my daily meds n supplements..... etc, etc
Covid situation does not help..... I kept turning down doctors' advice to have the growth removed. I told them I am not taking the risk because I have not gotten my 2nd Covid booster yet.... And I am not ready to get exposed to the virus that is in the hospital air.
As for existing health issues.... there are many. The ghost of sport injuries come back to haunt...... Lumba n cervical spondylosis always cause nerve problems...... including weaker legs, back pain.... Both damaged knees worsened the condtion.... Being over weight does not help....... The damages caused by the treatment 20 years ago also add to the problem..... The right arm that developed lympodema leaves the left arm to be needled again n again... Blue black is the color...... Running vein is another legacy of the previous treatment. Blood taking is always an ordeal. Being successful the first try is very remote..... Having hypertention condition also makes treatment more vulnerable.... More caution needed to monitor the BP.
Well, As I always believe, Allah SWT know best. Allah SWT do not test His hamba with something beyond the hamba ability to endure. Just like the 1st time, I redha n I am working hard to find my cure. Inn Sya Allah.
With the love n support of my husband, my daughter, my son & his family n my dearest sister, the yellow butterfly, Bismillahirahmanirahim, I am saying goobye to 2022 n hello to 2023 with love...❤❤❤
Sunday 12 December 2021
There I go again..... One entry at the begining n one entry at the end.😁😁😁
Not going to offer any execuses this time.
Just received a call from Niel n it eases the anxiety a little. With this lingring migraine, it does mean a lot.
Wow, Christmas is just round the corner... It hits me when Niel mentioned that he n his wife just came home from sending some money for Christmas gifts to family in Bohol.
Discussed with Irma on our contribution. She agreed n need to talk to hubby about his contribution.... It has been our annual practice but gosh almost forgotten about it.
Memory is that bad huh !
Besides conveying the brother's salam, I told Irma I am feeling a little sayu, sad in a way for some reason or other.... Maybe after reading some sad news on FB... Two children were orphaned due to accident on the North South Highway yesterday n a lady developed physical pain due to great stress n thought that she is going nut as no doctor could find anything wrong after running some tests. It took a patient ortho intern to tell her that her pain is real n only she has to see a different kind of doctor to get help....,
12.26am Monday 13 December 2021
After a break n a ceragem session, continued with the entry….
Looking back, it has been a tough n a trying year this 2021…. Allah SWT decide to test me again… giving back to me what I was given 20 years ago. I can not complain actually. I have been rather complacent, putting caution to the wind, did not mind my life style, did not watch my diet……
Have been taking Letrozole since May. Have been feeling extra tired ever since. Could not do as much gardening as I used to….It is always resting time in the afternoon…..
It is late now, so will continue when I continue…..Goodnight world😴😴😴
8.33am Monday 13 December 2021
After a good night sleep, feeling much better overall. Had aloe blend to increase immunity . Inn Sya Allah.
This morning, expecting the tiling contractor to come n look over the new cat house n give us the quotation. Bismillahurahmanirahim... let it be a good negotiation. Amèen YRA
Had to ask the tukang ti seal back the wall. The water outlet that he is making is not viable n it will make tiling mire difficult. Moreover, the screw on cap is rather cumblesome... Eyesore from the entrance. This is the result of tukang being forgetful😐🙄 Forgot the make allowance for water drainage when cementing the floor.😔😭😢
Taking a break now....
